Get Your Fear Back
"His mercy is for those who fear Him from generation to generation" -Luke 1:50
With the ebb and flow of life, it is easy to get caught up in the temporal. There is just so much to do! From work obligations, parenting, taking care of the house, volunteering, being a good spouse and spending time with friends...with each task we juggle, it's easy to forget we are such a small spot in our galaxy, to think our world is the only one that matters, to think that we have so much control of our lives. Over time, we become incapacitated by our needs.
I remember the day I got my fear back. The day my temporal world was turned upside-down. It was the day I was told my daughter would die. This was the day I would reanalyze life and look to my Father for the deliverance I so desperately needed. This is the day I realized, fully, that He is the only one. This fear hurled me into a life so very different from the one I once knew.
Was I scared? Did I experience extreme remorse? Did I look envious upon other neighboring NICU newborns with the promise of "normal" life? Of course I did; I would be lying if I told you otherwise.
I look back upon these grievances and am now overwhelmed with joy, gratitude and thanksgiving. Why? Fear of the Lord overcomes any and all fear on this earth. Over the past 19 months, I have come to realize that my God is the one that chose and created me (and you!). He is the one that delivers us from all transgression. He is the one that deserves honor, glory, and reverence in every moment we are gifted. He is the one that is in control (when we relinquish it) and wills for this world to be that of Heaven.
But let me tell you, it is not easy to maintain this train of thought every day. The enemy uses experiences moment-to-moment and day-to-day to continually challenge our responses...and unfortunately, our response isn't always God.
To retain our fear and keep our eyes on heaven, we can surround ourselves with God's promises. We can find these promises in Christian music and by keeping the Word at our fingertips (bible apps, carry a bible, and recite verses). Continually be in prayer and repentance. Invite Him on the commute and clear your front seat so you can talk to Him as a friend on your drive.
I would urge you to find a quiet space, close your eyes and picture sitting at the Lord's feet, in absolute awe and reverence. Bask in His delight. It is impossible to describe the feeling of complete peace when sitting in silence with the Father. With this peace, fear of this world has no place, and we are able to live the life our Father wishes for us to experience on this earth.
So-which fear do you choose? Fear of the enemy and circumstances of this life-or-fear of our Lord, the fear to end all fears?
When I look at your heavens, the work of your fingers, the moon and stars, which you have set in place, what is man that you are mindful of him, and the son of man that you care for Him? -Psalm 8:3-4